Going strong: The Cards are Stacked

So this is week one completed of my new weight loss plan and I'd say so far so good. I eat salad at least once a day, have been drinking tons of water, and hit the gym 5 times this week. I have stayed away from the scale (since I won't be weighing myself until the 24th) and I am trying to rely on what I FEEL rather than what the scale SAYS...although it is scary because there is this huge fear that I am going to work my butt off and then when I weigh myself its going to say I am only down two pounds after 3 and half weeks of working hard (hey its happened before)...but I'll just have to wait and see (and PRAY!! lol). Yesterday was the first time that I let myself have a freebie -- I went to a basketball game at my college and I indulged in some nachos...and it was funny because I was pinning for these nachos all week but once I had them I felt they were just okay...not bad just nothing to write home about. I mean I would have rather have had a baked pork chop and some asparagus instead -- I ate about half of the nachos (which was actually a lot) and threw the rest away and didn't eat again for the rest of the night. Since I felt bad about eating the nachos I came home and did a little dance exercise for about 35 minutes. I realize I didn't work off the nachos but it felt good to know that I at least worked hard enough to burn 100 calories.

Another thing I've been doing is watching every weight loss show possible. I watch the biggest loser and then I bought a season of the show for my iphone and I watch that while working out at the gym. The other night I was watching heavy, I just finished watching the finale of I used to be fat and now I've started watching shedding for the wedding, lol. I am determined to remain motivated throughout this thing. I don't have the time to not be motivated I graduate in 77 days and I've got to make this happen!! I WILL NOT FAIL THIS TIME! I refuse to become accustom to losing! I realize I am the type of person who not only needs a pep talk everyday but I need a pep talk throughout the day. Everyday I have been talking to myself, telling myself how much this whole thing means to me, how good it feels to be healthy, how far I have come, and how far I am going to go. I can't wait for the day when I don't have to stuff my stomach into my pants and I instead can just slide my pants over it. Its hard because you want to get there so fast but it takes time, sigh, but I know if I stick with what I'm doing I will see a change! I am changing for good and there is NO going back. Not only do I want to be hot, healthy, and happy for graduation but I also have a trip to Maui at the end of the summer and the excitement of starting my new life in Washington, DC. I'd say the cards are stacked in my favor ;)