Encourage Yourself is a gospel song that I heard not too long ago. And it really rings true to me right now. I can have a million cheerleaders in my corner but the most important person in my corner has to be me. I have let myself go recently...it seems as if every time I make progress I have to back pedal and I hate it. It's like once I reach my miniature goal I have to sabotage myself and I am OVER it! I am starting over right now and I am not stopping. Graduation is just weeks away and I have so many amazing things to look forward to after this....summer is just around the corner. And I want to be able to wear a cute swimsuit dammit! I always try to get in shape over the summer but I want to be in shape when the summer starts!! If I turn my attitude around things can change right now. I realized that its not even the tools I have in front of me like the gym or a fridge full of healthy foods it is all about my attitude. When I am feeling good and motivated and focused all of my tools work together....but when I don't I can skip the gym day after day and I can bypass my spinach and baked chicken in my fridge for a chipotle burrito. It is ALL about my attitude -- it is about being my OWN cheerleader. I am worth all of the energy it takes to accomplish this goal and I truly believe that all is not lost and that my visions of being healthy and fit are not as far off as I have always imagined.
Tomorrow is a new day and I am starting FRESH! Not recognizing past failures or the fact that the last two weeks have been a complete bust for me. I am not going to use the scale to validate how I feel about myself.
So here's the plan....I'm going back to doing things how I was doing them before. Basically the Suzanne Somers diet with my own twists (which worked for me before) I am going to be exercising 5 times a week. Monday/Wednesday: 75 mins and Friday/Saturday/Sunday: 90 mins. Mondays I am going to make myself run the mile (lol so hard my best time is 9:08 I think??) and my attitude is gonna be 100% BETTER. No time for negativity or self doubt! I've got progress to make!
I am going to weigh myself on May 1st (so about 3 weeks!) and then I'll go and weigh myself right before my graduation (May 22nd) to see what my final number is. I was hoping for 135 but I feel I'll be closer to 140-145 range. Hopefully 140!! I was 150 before spring break but after two failed weeks I am sure I've probably gained a few pounds but I'm not gonna weigh myself and I'm gonna keep pushing because I don't really need to know if I gained two pounds back....all that is gonna do is discourage me....and I'm DONE with that way of thinking. Besides I am gonna take of those two pounds PLUS a whole lot more in the very NEAR future.
On to the next!! Hopefully by May 1st I am around 142-145 :)
I may be the only person reading this blog but for me it is therapeutic so it doesn't even matter!
