The Train: Chugging Along

163 it is. Nothing has really changed. My train is...chugging along. Well more like a stand still. I'm not really gaining and not really losing. I mean I might gain a pound or two but then the next few days I'll lose a pound or two. The strange thing is that I haven't lost my motivation but it's just kind of cooled off a little. I really do want to get in shape. Could you imagine going to a doctor's appointment and not freaking out when they say their gonna weigh you? Yeah thats the kind of in shape I'm looking for. I've made up a new plan for myself called plan 13 (2.0 version) -- basically the part two of my original plan 13 I told you about before...my ultimate goal is to lose 13 pounds (hopefully more!) by July 21st so that I can get down to 150. I have a wedding to go to on the East coast and I'll be seeing a lot of people that I haven't seen since I was close to 180 pounds and I really want it to be one of those things where people see you and go wow! I've never been the wow girl...I want to be the wow girl...I NEED to be the wow girl at least that one time. So I guess that should be my new motivation. I mean I'll need a wow -worthy dress for the wedding and everyone knows that the East coast in the summer time is HOT so I'll need to be fit so I can do the whole t-shirt and shorts combo -- hell if I get in shape enough I might even want to go swimming when I'm over there. I've also started a new commitment where I plan to look nice everyday. I know this may sound strange to some of you but I used to have the low self-esteem dress bad syndrome and I didn't treat myself the way I deserved to be treated. I started work today and I dressed up and people noticed! They were so used to me with my hair pulled into a bun with plain black paints and lackluster shirt that they we're surprised to see me with my hair down, makeup on, and a dress with sparkly sandals -- it felt good to look good. And while the amount of cute guys at my job is pretty close to zero you never know who you might find lumbering around the mail room after lunch ;) (true story -- saw this REALLY cute mail guy once but I looked like hell so I avoided him and dressed nice the next day hoping for a glance and never saw him again...) so regardless of size I've been keeping up with looking nice. And now with plan 13 2.0 in effect my motivation is sure to be regenerated...keep your fingers crossed!